What pisses me off?


What pisses me off is the fact that a beautiful friendship that could’ve lasted between a boy and a girl gets fucked up…totally fucked up…cause the girl develops ‘feeling’, feelings of bloody ‘love’ for that boy who she thought was the one person who truly understood her, who cared for her, who she could share her deepest thoughts with…all fucked up!!

In reality the boy sees girl as merely a ‘friend’, good friend even..but LOVE (na huh…zilch!!). Girl is faced with the hurtful dilemma of balancing friendship and her feelings of love. There are moments she wants her old buddy…times when she wished he could love her, acknowledge her feelings at least..moments she wants to spend time with him jjust to hear his voice and moments when she does not even want him in sight!

A pitiful condition…a condition where love fucks up a friendship!:(


Blessed – Elton John


Hey you, you’re a child in my head
You haven’t walked yet
Your first words have yet to be said
But I swear you’ll be blessed

I know you’re still just a dream
your eyes might be green
Or the bluest that I’ve ever seen
Anyway you’ll be blessed

And you, you’ll be blessed
You’ll have the best
I promise you that
I’ll pick a star from the sky

Pull your name from a hat
I promise you that, promise you that, promise you that
You’ll be blessed 

I need you before I’m too old
To have and to hold
To walk with you and watch you grow
And know that you’re blessedImage

The Price of Innocence


Isn’t everything so beautiful,

Are not things so easy,

We expect all to be smooth,

But then a moment takes it all away.

Including myself from others.

Then I just can’t recover,

Who will understand what that moment has taken away from me?

I wish that moment would never have come

When I would just be myself and my innocence would never have been lost

Who is to be blamed I myself or the other?

Nobody understands my plight

And I find myself alone with nobody to go back to

I wait forever….

Sometimes its b…


Sometimes its better to be in pain,

Sometimes nobody understands the pain,

Sometimes its better to be alone,

Sometimes it better not have friends,

Cause when that person leaves you the pain is unacceptable,

Who will understand my misery?

It can only be me and not any one else.

God and Me in troubled times


I always fight with You,

I always say I will do what I want,

But You invariably interfere with my life,

However much I want to deny You,

You seem never to allow me forget the say You have in my life,

Why? How? I am still trying to find out.

I live in a world of denial,

Because deep inside I know,

However hard I might try and fight You

You would never allow me to win,

Is it that You cant see me happy?

Cause as soon as happiness comes knocking at my door,

You show up and play Your game,

That is why I say I tend to doubt You, 

Because You do whatever it is You feel like,

And never ever what I want.

May be I am selfish,

But why do You always choose me and not others?Image

I know i am not…


I know i am not a perfect friend,
You have hurt me many times and i’ve tried to mend.
I never questioned you back.

Maybe i should say goodbye.
Would it be better for me to go?,
I asked you, and you said “No”.
Why say no when i hurt you so bad,
But believe me,
you’re not the only one that’s sad.
I made my best friend hurt like mad,

If i left would you be glad?.
Deep in my heart,
I’ll always know,
Even if i go!

Happy Birthday Roger


Ahhhh the man has finally turned 31!!! And that to in style by winning the oh so revered and coveted tennis title – Wimby ’12! The victory of course came amongst the usual incessant talk of him growing old and nearing ‘retirement’ (whatever that means – to a fed fan like me.. The R word is non existent) . This charming ‘old’ man goes further to win a silver medal at the London 2012 Olympics – of course many prayed for a Gold but only glory hunters would disregard a silver!!

Why do I love this man?!?! Why do I respect him?!?! Why do I feel for him?!?! Why do I pray that he succeeds in everything he does?!?!…even though he probably doesn’t know I exist?!?!

Because that’s what we federer fans do!! We alone know and cherish the role he plays in our lives. Roger Federer is an experience…he is family!!!

Happy birthday Roger!!!